I heard a rumor that you're struggling. That you're having a hard time hanging on and that you've been thinking that maybe we're all better off without you.
Hearts heal, and our minds lie to even the best of us. You need to give yourself the time to sort things out. The only way to not let time work its magic is if you cut yourself short, so please don't.
The world is a brighter better place with you in it. Your talent, your intelligence, they're things that need to be shared with the world, and if not the whole wide world, the tiny one here in our community. Your loss would be greatly felt. You might feel like an insignificant pebble on the beach sometimes, but if you drop that pebble into a pond it's ripples go on and on and on.
I know that life can feel impossibly hard sometimes, and that the light at the end of the tunnel is often tiny and flickering, but that doesn't mean it isn't there. Not to sound trite, but things DO get better. It won't be easy, all the best things require work. Life will never be absolutely perfect, but that only gives you the opportunity to find the beauty in it's imperfections. There is no magic greater than our ability to adapt and grow, even in shadows.
I feel like we can learn more from failures than successes, we have to teach ourselves how to be better, and our only real competition is the person staring back at us in the mirrors. You don't have to be better than the person next to you, you have to be better than you were yesterday.
Find an outlet that isn't self destructive, whether that be art, helping others, exploring the world around you, read a book, lose yourself in a movie you've never watched before, spend some time in the great outdoors just watching the world spin around you, look for shapes in the clouds, whatever it takes to calm the voices in your head.
I know you may not be ready to read this, or that it might sound like someone who has no idea what you're going through is just throwing a lot of cliches in your face, but I've treaded shark infested waters myself and was able to swim to shore. I just want you to know you have someone on your side ready to throw you a life jacket when you feel like you're going under.
You are loved, you are important, the world needs you.