early this morning I was awakened by a nightmare that made me sit up, get out of bed, turn every light in my studio apartment on, and make sure all my locks and deadbolts were firmly in place.... and even then I wasn't so sure that it was okay to turn the lights back off for at least another hour.
in hindsight the dream wasn't that bad as far as my vivid scary dreams have been in the past, but I still woke up in a cold sweat. In the dream I had been driving through my grandmother's old neighborhood, the one she lived in while I was growing up, often times my dream state takes me back to this house, this neighborhood. Anyway as I was slowing my car getting closer to her house, I saw that she was backing out of the garage in her old car (I don't think she's had this car in more than a decade) and that she was on her way to work (she retired more than 15 years ago) so I kept driving so that she wouldn't be late to work. I was super anxious in the dream so I decided to go to Starbucks to get some herbal tea to calm my nerves (don't judge, it's a dream). On my way to the coffee shop I got stopped at a red light on the bad side of town and I felt someone kicking the back of my seat... so hard that it adjusted my seat forward, I reached around behind the seat feeling around to see what could have jostled me and felt someone's legs. I jumped out of the car in the middle of what was now fairly busy traffic and started beating on the person who was hiding out in my car, I was screaming for help and trying to get the other driver's attention so we could get who ever was in my car out, except no one would help, they were just honking because the light had turned green and I was blocking them.
when I woke up my left hand was super sore (it still is) like I had been fighting (or what I'd assume it would feel like anyway).
Monday, October 21, 2013
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Album: From Here to Now to You
Point of Purchase: iTunes
Thoughts: I almost bought the album earlier in the week at Target ($13.99 with two bonus tracks) but ended up putting it back because it wasn't on the shopping list (along with a lot of other impulse decisions that I decided against). The next day I found it on Spotify and listened to it... twice back to back. It's that good. It's probably one of my favorite JJ albums to date, and I love them all.
I Got You: "Back when all my little goals seemed so important, Every pot of gold fill and full of distortion, Heaven was a place still in space not in motion"
Washing Dishes: "I want you to wonder what's my name, Because I need you to want me the same"
Shot Reverse Shot: "You're the rock and I'm the paper, You're the scissors I'm the rock"
Never Fade: "I tried to play it cool and attached no strings, But by the end of the day, I needed the whole thing"
Tape Deck: "We're just specks of love, directionless"
Don't Believe a Thing I Say: "Are we free or afraid, Of what we're told, Are we out of or under, Control"
As I Was Saying: "I've been erasing, Rewrote the second half like this, So my protagonist, Might find his way back home"
You Remind Me of You: "Your daddy gave you daydreams, And more cushion in your seat"
Radiate: "As you walk you believe, Every part of the dream"
Ones and Zeros: "In the future we'll be laughing at who we were right now"
Change: "Turning page after page after page, It gets stranger day by day"
Home: "this old trail will lead me right back to where it begins"